I Trust You, God

Last night, I found myself questioning God. I was angry. And I was sad. I don’t understand why bad things happen to good people. It’s not fair and it just doesn’t make sense to me. Why would God allow someone who brings so much light into this world to have cancer? How could He even allow cancer to exist? It has attacked and ended the lives of so many. Why does He allow endless bad things to happen to good people? Why can’t He use his mighty hand to protect the great ones of this world?

As I was lying in my bed, unable to sleep, the Holy Ghost told me I needed to get up and read my scriptures. I used every ounce of energy I had left to force myself out of bed, walk to the living room, turn on the lamp, and open up my sacred readings. I was flooded with peace as I read the words of the Creator.

Our Heavenly Father doesn’t want us to suffer. I’m sure it pains Him deeply to look down on us and see what we have to go through on the earth. But He endures the excruciating pain of just watching and allows what is meant to be to unfold, because He knows the end reward will far outweigh anything we have had to go through while living in the world. Bad things are going to happen, despite all of the hard work we put in to make life good. We don’t need to question God; even when things get bad, His ultimate plan will still prevail and all will be well.

Thankfully, our time on this earth is but a tiny piece of our entire being. If we could only more fully understand the big picture, cancer wouldn’t seem like such a big deal anymore. Suffering isn’t eternal. Death is not permanent. There is a Heaven, and when our time comes to enter it we will be reunited with everyone we love and will remember our pain and suffering no more.

“Yes, this life is passing swiftly; our days seem to fade quickly; and death appears frightening at times. Nevertheless, our spirit will continue to live and will one day be united with our resurrected body to receive immortal glory. I bear solemn witness that because of the merciful Christ, we will all live again and forever. Because of our Savior and Redeemer, one day we will truly understand and rejoice in the meaning of the words “the sting of death is swallowed up in Christ.” –Dieter F Uchtdorf

One of my lifelong heroes has been invaded by a brain tumor. It doesn’t belong in her head and I don’t know who gave it permission to reside there. But as it slowly continues to overtake her body, I can only imagine the cheers up in heaven of all the people excited to be reunited with such a wonderful woman who has done her part to make this world a better place. She has done what Heavenly Father wanted her to accomplish on this earth, and is ready to move onto bigger and better things. And I can picture my Heavenly Father, taking her by the hand to welcome her into the highest kingdom of heaven, speaking the words, “Well done, good and faithful servant…” And that is what gives me comfort today. God, I Trust You.

“Never assume that you can make it alone. You need the help of the Lord. Never hesitate to get on your knees in some private place and speak with Him.”—Gordon B. Hinckley

“There is terrible suffering in our world today. Tragic things happen to good people. God does not cause them, nor does He always prevent them. He does, however, strengthen us and bless us with His peace, through earnest prayer.”—Rex D. Pinegar


Bright Blue Stone


4 Replies to “I Trust You, God”

  1. Oh Ellie,you speak the words of our hearts 💞 & share the testimony of where to find our comfort & peace! Which Barbara has magnified to all she comes in contact with! We could have never received a greater gift of example in our lives!

  2. You are wiser than your years.. may our heavenly father comfort you during this time of sorrow..
    (1 Peter 5:10
    And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.)

    Your grandma has been someone that I have known and looked up to most of my life. she has a pure heart and soul and a deep pure faith in our heavenly father.
    she has been the inspiration of true faith to all of us .
    god bless you little blue stone and your beautiful soul may you feel comfort in his words and feel his comforting hand to ease your sorrow..My prayers are with you and your family

  3. Ellie–what a beautiful piece that will be a sacred family heirloom. Dale and I cried together as I read it to him on our way to Sioux Falls. Thank you for getting up last night when you didn’t want to, and thank you for recording your thoughts for all of us. It was just what we needed. 💖

  4. We have had quite a few in our family called to the other side in the past few years. An army of angels is gathering in our behalf, and I am glad they are on our side. These spiritual giants will be there when we need help with the burdens that we all will be called to carry.

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